Doon n its rain..

Did u c, this is the diff b/w dehradun n other cities of india..

still no job..things gonna be hell soon

Still no job guys!!!
Just one month and I will be added into the count of unemployed people in the India (not for long I guess, yeah), I have no idea what to do, where to go, when to do, just no idea . College has bluffed the students, charged heavy bucks as the placement fees but apart from few students, all the guys and gals (well not talking about the gals, Job hardly matters for them) are roaming aimlessly in the college. College campus has gone lull and serene these days.

No concentration during the lectures. Well what the heck to do with the lectures if they can't vouch for a good Job. 3rd semester results are out, I secured 71 percentage (do hell with the percentage) but like last semester (when I was able to secure merely 66 percentage due to slothing and my base indolence) I wasn't able to feel any kind of excitement this time, probably things are not same like olways.

Its for sure now, I am not gonna leave my college management, well I have some plans in my blustering mind, once I have degree in my hand and the time will be to implement those plans, but truly its for sure I am not gonna leave those liers.

Well, things are not on the right track at all, even sometimes I feel stifling.

I am sure I will be working with some sector in may or June but I guess that will be too late, and things gonna be worsen till then, I will be liable for answering to my relatives, neighbors, friends and others, though I am not compel to, coz my father is supporting me in all the way, he is such a nice father. he always use to say me that need not to afraid with agony, as he will be beside me olways, and this time too he said need not to worry and hurry about job, just do your work.

But for now I can't find any ray of hope, I just need some good times, else things gonna be hell soon for me. I really need some good time.

Hard luck....for me......but things are not same always....morning has to comes after night....its nature law guys...cheerss.

n-joi'

"Ajit"

Here comes the stage of depression and frustration

As anticipated way earlier...here comes the stage of frustration and a huge depression....... friends!!!! .....its second month of the 4th semester and couple of or say hardly 3 more months to go......depression is obligatory...isn't it!!!!!

Still no job....few companies visited the college but nothing seems to be working well...either I am not eligible for them or they are from the Insurance sectors.

If I surf the Internet for jobs then they are Just restricted to Pune, Chennai, Hyderabad, or Delhi, seems like people don't live and work at small places, and talking about the consultancies here at Dehradun, well they don't give you the guarantee for a really good job with a good package.

And the most amazing thing, every employer these days expects you to be well experienced, like no fresher exists in this world and those who exists, are just filthy sit. what a bummer, I am just pissed off!!

Well truly speaking I was very much aware that I have to face this situation at some time and I had prepared myself according to it but now when I am really facing this situation I don't know why I am so vexed. It seems like world is ending for me, and situation is that I have just started hating to do those things which I usually did during my spare time like surfing the net, TV Remote left untouched these days and may be reading novels, but yea for sure music has always been my best buddy...and still I like to listen to it.

Well lets see where my future gonna land me up as couple of companies are lined up to visit the campus next week.

Hope for the best....Cheerrssssssssssssssss

life isn't about Just passing the time!!!

Well not seldom but I should say most oftenly I used to think that goddd what I am doing, just nothing, I mean look around me, you will find many common people doing uncommon things. they are attaining greater heights day by day, creating new benchmarks for their upcoming contemporaries, making their family feel proud.

I mean, what I do daily, just nothing, during college days, I just go to the college, attend the classes and returns to the home "safely" and then whattttt, it sucks like hell, watch TV eat food and sleep, a nap at the noon and then a snore full tight sleep at the night (though I never do the snoring, but I get a feel for it because my roommate do), and the worst on the off days, just sleep whole day, if get time then surf internet, watch TV, goshhhhh, I mean why I never had any special work.

What m doing, I have grown mature now and nothing yetttt...ehhh damnnn !!!

Guys and gals below my age are entreprenuers, sports persons (look at our under 19 cricket team, or why under 19, just through a sight at the Indian cricket team), some are earning more then a handsome money, some are lieutenants, many are taking admissions in IIM's and IIT's, even my dad was serving the Indian navy by the  age of mine, and am just freaking, damn damn damn !!!

I just never tried to come out of the comfort zone, I opted for HR as my specialization, I guess, just to freak in the office...hahhhh, no this is wrong now, I have marketing too, but I have opted for HR because I would like to burn my bums by sitting in the office doing nothing...lol

abruptly if someone approaches me after reading this blog and says "hey bro, I have got some work for you then I would probably say "ohh leave it for now, don't you see sehwag has just completed a nimble ton"

ha ha :-)

well I can't help myself, lets see if my boss (upcoming and HR) has got something for me or wondering whether he/she will also admire the sehwag's quick knock !

placement...wt else??

finally time is coming slowly and steadily...... of-course for Job yaar.

There was a time when I was doing my engineering I used to say one phrase...."boss !! time goes but study remains"...probably I was thinking to pursue MBA/PGDM, and was in the mood to remain parasite and get my monthly salary from home....cheersssss

But now what, my fifth external exam is on 22nd of December 2009, one more to go..

and on 23rd of December my 3rd semester is wrapping up and with this I will be eligible to apply for Job, ohh god !! what a life it will be...

I will have around 15 to 20 days to enjoy my semester break at home , but the time isn't the same like always, the job stress will be hovering over my mind, though my college is guaranteeing a good placement, and I can't find any answer to get tensed for Job...

I mean I have given more then three lacks to the college for providing me a good Job (ohh common, don't say for PGDM degree) then why the damn I am worrying...ohh crap...may be its a stress for whether college will provide me really good placement (something related to my specialization-HR) and if yes then till when.

well I have to cope up with this situation latently, will see what happen, still some study remains ha ha, and I can still get monthly salary from the home (also salary is incremented, I am doing PGDM guys), so why not enjoy.

and rather then worrying I should look to have good time at my home.

is that what love demands??

neither I can sleep, nor I can study, its hard to breath and moreover it really sucks to belief... yes... guys love sucks!!!

There was a time when I used to listen the common saying around my vicinity but never paid attention to it that love is the most baneful addiction one can have and ironically that too without raising any alarm. they keep saying that it should be avoided, but how can one avert it...

"kabi kisi ko mukkamal jahan nahi milta, kahi zameen to kahin aasman nahi milta, tere jahan me aisa nahi ki pyaar na ho, zaha ummed ho utna waha nahi milta"

well she is a very cute girl and moreover different from others...the one I like..what makes her different from other girls is her intelligence, but what makes her similar from them is her emotional foolishness, a...nn...ddd... what makes are outstanding is that she in not talking to me any further....hmmm

love is what every one has its own perception about, go and ask thousands people what love is and you will get thousands answers but no one will be sure what love is.

Those are lucky who have lived or are living in love because what I believe is that they must have did something virtuous deeds in their previous life or are doing in their present life, though I never been that lucky, what I know is, that girl has no feeling for me in her heart, in her suave and sweet heart, but I don't have any complaints in that regards because there is another saying as a consolation for those like me that "true love doesn't mean to get, it rather says just be happy where ever she is"

"aaj tak bandhi hai uske aane ki ummed, aaj tak thehri hui hai zindagi apni jagah,

lakh ye chaha ki use bhool jaoo par, housle apne zagah hai, bebasi apni jagah." 

it has been three months since our talk, m sure it will be three years......thirty years......ma whole life.......but she will remain a special person through out my life..

love has no meaning today, am not sure those who claims (includes me also) that they are in true love, knows what is love, what is love all about, its not about go and propose her/him to be girlfriend or to be boyfriend,  and if you are boy, you got the responsibility to bear her all expenses and if you are girl then you got all the rights to do whatever you wanna do with your newly made boyfriend's wallet. ahh common, is that love, is that what love demand?? Poor generation !!!

Anyways guys, just wanna say one thing with my own conscience.......true love does sucks.....it really hurts........its a addiction.....its a passion, how much it may be baneful, how much it may cost, just fall in love with some one and you will came to know how much it is sweet, pure like a divine, enthusiastic like small kid.....

Love demands desperation......nothing else

Well talking about me, I am always been a happy guy, I liked her unconditionally but am not sure whether it was desperately......

"kaash ek din aisa aaye, saamne tu rahe aur umar gujar jaaye"

Do PeApLe ReAllY LoVe Me??????

(THIS ARTICLE EXCLUDES MY FAMILY MEMBERS)

I am on my bed now just about to sleep as I am having a strong headache. I am on my bed and couple of thoughts are constantly striking on my mind (may be that's why I am having a headache), 1st thought is that do people really love me? and 2nd thing is that....whether its just my wrong perception....

yea its true that I does have a few of my best friends and few good friends....among best freinds are those which can do "a lotttttt" for me and good friend includes those which can do a lot for me but according to there comfort......but "a lotttt" means "a lottt" only...i doubt and I am afraid to say if my best freinds can cross "a lotttt" limit and can do anything for me, "I know" I am wrong but truly saying I exactly don't know whether I am right by saying "I know".

I too fall in love, she is good friend of mine even now and also liked a girl at my PG (though I never loved her), but I know, they all are not going to do anything for me ....thats for sure.

its been 24 years now and it is really shameful for anyone to write such a blog and to doubt on his/her friends specially person like me who have got such a goooooood friends.

I know, when needed, there are more than 10 pairs of hands which gonna hold me up in my bad time but if a person have so many good and best friends then how can he/she suffer from bad time.

its just my perception, not my belief...and I am sorry if any of my friend after reading this blog got hurts couse its not intentionally....its just an extempore....a thought breaks into my mind and I simply wrote it.

I am not a depressed kinda person and I am also in good state of my mind, its just a blog, not the life

Ajit Pratap Singh